It's Over

The end of an era came on Thursday night. My life will be changing.

Your unwillingness to ask for help, to seek help, lets me know what I need to know. Your lack of faith in Faith tells me the rest of the story. I feel nothing. I want nothing. I'm numb. I'm just going about my days weightless. Free of the burden of you. I am sorry for the life that will never be, a life that had such promise. And I am feeling guilty about the lack of emotion in me now. But what am I supposed to do, I guess I expected to be a huge ball of depression, unable to get out of the bed- but I'm just not.

Last night a friend hugged me and for the first time in years, I had a huge thrust of wow. I haven't felt that in ages. It's good.

KK, thank you for being my savior right now. I'm totally comfortable here and at peace here. I love the babe running around.