Sunday, February 17, 2008

Rainn, love, and other things...

Rainn Wilson smashed a guitar at this Conference in Stamford.

I wrote that of course because he said we would all write that in our blogs today. He was great! After smashing a guitar he made some great points about life, love and his relationship with God, all of which were laced with sarcasm and cursing. Thank God there is a real person out there in this Faith. His mix of realism and The Word of God were interesting.

A couple of quotes impacting me today:

Words are weak, love it speaks- Josh James

We should soar in love, not fall in love- Martin Kerr

The wisest women often don't speak- Benny Cassette

I look into your eyes and I know you deserve a better man- Andy Grammer

Seeking the approval of men is often the cause of imperiling the approval of God- Baha'u'llah

This morning I was overcome by a welling up of emotion- the emotion of love. I realized today that I have so much love to give, I am so full of this love that tears started streaming down my face- because I have no where to thwart that love. I have been holding back for so many years, not fully reaching my potential for loving and giving and serving people that I just am so ready to start using it. The really sad part came when I realized I currently have no where to give it, in the traditional sense, like to a life partner. I am glad to be falling in love with people (not in the romantic sense) but in the human capacity sense. I am in love with Maz and Gaz, I am madly in love with Cute D, I am in love with my new friend Sholeh- she's lovely, I love Cherie and Walt and Travis and all sorts of other people around the world. But where is that significant other? The one who is available to receive this love 24 hours a day? Where are you? I crave you. I think I never even had you when I was married. And so to my future spousal unit, I await you. As Cute D said to me today:

"Until God says it's time. So, we have to relax, take a deep breath (probably not the first you've taken today) and just wait it out. In faith. Because it's all in God's time. And, that's the way it is. No way to change it, and it won't help to fight it."

And so I wait, with patience.

1 comment:

Corinne said...

Hi! I was at NEBY too, and I'm looking for the source on the quote by Baha'u'llah that you have quoted here (Google brought me to you!), about seeking the approval of men can cause the imperiling of the approval of God. Do you know the source? I enjoyed your comments on the weekend!