I've been here less than 12 hours and am totally at peace.
I slept like I've never slept before
I enjoyed dinner like I've never eaten dinner before
I watched people like I've never seen people before
I drew in the fresh air as if I was taking my first breath
I have many objectives for this weekend:
1. Relaxing
2. No work
3. Evaluating if I really want to live here again
4. Reconnecting with my spiritual side
5. Blogging- I know you are neglected
6. Hiking
7. OF COURSE- seeing Double B's
And so I started this blog entry on Saturday morning, now Tuesday morning I am finishing it. I have accomplished all of my goals. I have relaxed, totally ignored work, decided I'm definitely moving back, prayed for the first time in months, am blogging, hiking this afternoon, and spent the most passionate and glorious evening with Double B's that I could ever have imagined.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
You amaze me
I can't stop thinking
can't stop reeling
I can't close my eyes without seeing
can't put you out of my sight
didn't sleep last night
The flashback comes more vivid with every moment
and yet, I am so at ease...
with you and with me
even with the torture we endure daily
I KNOW in the end-- what will be will be.
can't stop reeling
I can't close my eyes without seeing
can't put you out of my sight
didn't sleep last night
The flashback comes more vivid with every moment
and yet, I am so at ease...
with you and with me
even with the torture we endure daily
I KNOW in the end-- what will be will be.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Things to look forward to
colorado, lynsey and ryan's wedding, having children, a week at louhelen, jogging tonight, kissing someone new, a new life, citizen cope in concert, movies that matter in august, my 30th birthday party- november 1, a cigar, roselyn coming home, sleep, courtney's visit, moving, being debt free, december 14, 2008, seeing double b's, st. louis, a good massage, selling everything i own, being a goddess again, tomorrow at the houstonia, meeting you in the elevator, having a cup of tea with gaz and maz, seeing katie's belly, meeting kazra for the first time, j! and what will be, a real vacation, sitting the shrines again, catching up on all of your blogs..
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
The house that Zac built
So yesterday Julia took me where she has been staying...near her new work...otherwise known as "The House that Zac Built"
When you meet people, you always create pre-conceived notions in your head about what car they drive or what their house is like. Now, I am familiar with the area of town that this house is located in, so I had anticipated a 2 story house decked with Persian rugs and nice artifacts. I also, knowing Zac, anticipated a little bit of madness and messiness, but I never anticipated what I found.
House Rules:
1. Never lock the doors
2. In fact, never lock the doors and leave them ajar at all times during the day
3. If for some reason the doors are locked, don't worry, there are various windows through which you can crawl
4. Never run the air conditioner, even if it is 102 degrees and 87% humidity.
5. No real food is allowed, only left overs and a bottle of spicy mustard
6. Do not disturb Zac during nap time (between the hours of 3pm and 5pm)
7. Have random bottles of open liquor, wine and beer all over
8. Never throw anything away
9. Clutter is desired
10. The garage is always open and the keys to the Porsche are at your disposal at all times
11. Nothing can match-- not furniture, appliances, blinds, nor throw pillows
12. Walk into the house and expect an argument
13. Always keep more lawn furniture than real furniture
14. Do not put your clothes away
15. If you are in the bathroom and Zac is in the other bathroom, just open a window so you can communicate better
16. You can set your own curfew, but no matter what time it is, it's unacceptable
17. Don't bother calling the house phone, as they are all turned down to silent
18. Furniture is best displayed when shoved in a corner, stacked on top of each other, and disheveled
19. Nothing over $20 value is allowed in the house because...well see #1-3
20. All lamps must have burned out light bulbs
21. No showers allowed, if you want to shower, go to the Houstonia
22. Please blow dry your hair in the kitchen, as this is far more suitable than disturbing the master of the house
23. No drama (hysterical)
24. Why have one cell phone when you can have 3 that you don't know the numbers to?
And I could go on...
The place is falling down. He likes that people think he's a maniac. He loves that people think he is poor- uhm, 3 Porsche's and a Hummer don't contradict that at all. And come on, he loves the drama.
All that being said, he's a character and his house reflects it--but you gotta have a soft spot in your heart for the guy.
When you meet people, you always create pre-conceived notions in your head about what car they drive or what their house is like. Now, I am familiar with the area of town that this house is located in, so I had anticipated a 2 story house decked with Persian rugs and nice artifacts. I also, knowing Zac, anticipated a little bit of madness and messiness, but I never anticipated what I found.
House Rules:
1. Never lock the doors
2. In fact, never lock the doors and leave them ajar at all times during the day
3. If for some reason the doors are locked, don't worry, there are various windows through which you can crawl
4. Never run the air conditioner, even if it is 102 degrees and 87% humidity.
5. No real food is allowed, only left overs and a bottle of spicy mustard
6. Do not disturb Zac during nap time (between the hours of 3pm and 5pm)
7. Have random bottles of open liquor, wine and beer all over
8. Never throw anything away
9. Clutter is desired
10. The garage is always open and the keys to the Porsche are at your disposal at all times
11. Nothing can match-- not furniture, appliances, blinds, nor throw pillows
12. Walk into the house and expect an argument
13. Always keep more lawn furniture than real furniture
14. Do not put your clothes away
15. If you are in the bathroom and Zac is in the other bathroom, just open a window so you can communicate better
16. You can set your own curfew, but no matter what time it is, it's unacceptable
17. Don't bother calling the house phone, as they are all turned down to silent
18. Furniture is best displayed when shoved in a corner, stacked on top of each other, and disheveled
19. Nothing over $20 value is allowed in the house because...well see #1-3
20. All lamps must have burned out light bulbs
21. No showers allowed, if you want to shower, go to the Houstonia
22. Please blow dry your hair in the kitchen, as this is far more suitable than disturbing the master of the house
23. No drama (hysterical)
24. Why have one cell phone when you can have 3 that you don't know the numbers to?
And I could go on...
The place is falling down. He likes that people think he's a maniac. He loves that people think he is poor- uhm, 3 Porsche's and a Hummer don't contradict that at all. And come on, he loves the drama.
All that being said, he's a character and his house reflects it--but you gotta have a soft spot in your heart for the guy.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
My new schedule
6:15am- Wakeup
7:30am- Arrive at work
4:00pm- Leave work
4:30pm- Arrive home for nap
8:30pm- Wake up call from Julia with plans for the evening
10:00pm- Meet up with the Motley Crew for wine and snacks (I of course having water)
12:00am- Arrive at 2610 VIP style to dance until close
2:00am- Leave 2610
2:30am- Arrive home for second nap
And then do it all over again. This is the phase of my YOP I call "who needs sleep and food?" Both are pretty much absent right now.
7:30am- Arrive at work
4:00pm- Leave work
4:30pm- Arrive home for nap
8:30pm- Wake up call from Julia with plans for the evening
10:00pm- Meet up with the Motley Crew for wine and snacks (I of course having water)
12:00am- Arrive at 2610 VIP style to dance until close
2:00am- Leave 2610
2:30am- Arrive home for second nap
And then do it all over again. This is the phase of my YOP I call "who needs sleep and food?" Both are pretty much absent right now.
What I love about you
*1 grain of salt on your right cheek after downing a shot
*You + jeans
*You being the man that you are- taking hold of your life and aiming for success every time
*Smoking hookah nightly
*Your standards
*Your sense of responsibility for your actions
*Your neuroses about tomatoes and germs
*Your driving
*Your messy plate at the end of a meal
*Your eyes
*You requirement to be relaxed
*Your convictions
*Your niceness and gentlemanliness
But I will never say these things to you, I will only post them here for others to read-- my only effort in putting them out into the universe.
*You + jeans
*You being the man that you are- taking hold of your life and aiming for success every time
*Smoking hookah nightly
*Your standards
*Your sense of responsibility for your actions
*Your neuroses about tomatoes and germs
*Your driving
*Your messy plate at the end of a meal
*Your eyes
*You requirement to be relaxed
*Your convictions
*Your niceness and gentlemanliness
But I will never say these things to you, I will only post them here for others to read-- my only effort in putting them out into the universe.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Conspiracy Theory
I strongly believe that the flu shot is one big conspiracy theory. Like the government scares you into thinking that there's this horrible thing out there called the FLU and you should take this vaccination to be sure to not catch it. And...you can only get it from a government approved entity. And...sometimes there is going to be a shortage, just to throw the whole country and the media into a frenzy! You know, switch it up and create a demand and supply imbalance so that next year everyone will have a ridiculous desire to run out and get the flu shot as soon as they release the new version to fight against this year's mutated strand. Let it be known that I will never get a flu shot, and never will.
And now they've moved on tomatoes. OHHHH, that'll get the American public good. A tomato debacle in the middle of the summer. Salmonella no less. Wait remember when we were all kids and weren't allowed to eat cookie dough batter because we could die from salmonella poisoning? Do you know anyone in your school who died from eating cookie dough? I don't. I also don't know anyone who died from eating tomatoes in the last 2 weeks. I am totally rebelling against the fear of tomatoes that the government and media have created for us by buying as many as I can (reasonable for one person) and making sure that every dish I order in a restaurant has them, including the tomato only Caprese Salad if one is available on the menu.
And now they've moved on tomatoes. OHHHH, that'll get the American public good. A tomato debacle in the middle of the summer. Salmonella no less. Wait remember when we were all kids and weren't allowed to eat cookie dough batter because we could die from salmonella poisoning? Do you know anyone in your school who died from eating cookie dough? I don't. I also don't know anyone who died from eating tomatoes in the last 2 weeks. I am totally rebelling against the fear of tomatoes that the government and media have created for us by buying as many as I can (reasonable for one person) and making sure that every dish I order in a restaurant has them, including the tomato only Caprese Salad if one is available on the menu.
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